...And she told me to leave

So much ouch in my life. Like literally my whole life is just a constant stream of ouch and it’s getting scary how I’m getting so used to it, it’s physically painful now. And it sucks how I’m just “one of the guys” all the time tomorrows gonna suck for me and then I have to spend the week here until I can leave. I’m running away but I can’t handle it anymore, it hurts more than I ever thought I would ever feel pain. It’s not even pain, it just hurts all over with every inch of my body and it fucking sucks. I am sad. There is no other word to describe it. I am sad and alone. Always.

It gets to that point where you’ve tried for so long that you just physically can’t anymore, whether you want to or not and then you just stop wanting to.

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whorville:

I have bullshitted my way through almost two decades of life

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bl-ossomed:

do you ever just sit there and realize that you mean nothing to anyone and you start feeling like shit

aciddrip710:

Still one of my favorite pictures of all time

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aciddrip710:

Still one of my favorite pictures of all time

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Another one. I am purposefully doing this at the age of 19 what is life?

Are you ready to spill your guts?

Yeah but not literally

Why aren’t you dating the last person you texted?

She’s a lady

4 months ago, who did you have a crush on?

Some guy on my course

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you

Yeah

Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?

“Oh hi”

That was the last thing you drank?

Volvic touch of strawberry

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to be with?

Yeah

Is there anyone you want to come see you?

Yes

What were you doing at 4am this morning?

Sleeping

Do you regret something you did the day before yesterday?

Yeah

Is someone on your mind right now?

Yes

Are you listening to music right now?

Yes

Do you still live with your parents?

Yes and no

Have you ever lived with your girlfriend/boyfriend?

No

Next time you will kiss someone?

Dunno

Were you single on Valentines day?

Yes

Anyone you would like to get things straight with?

Yes

Are all girls cheaters?

No

Where were your hands last night at 11p.m?

In my lap or on the table

Do you read magazines, or just look at the pictures?

Pictures, sometimes read

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

Not anymore

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?

Uh yeah

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?

Dunno

Did you sleep alone last night?

With my koala bear…

Last time you laughed?

Today

Do you talk in your sleep?

Dunno :/

What time did you wake up today?

12.55

Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

LOL

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

Today kind of

Is anyone protective of you?

Not really

Have you made a mistake in the past week?

Yes

Do you know anyone named Joshua?

No

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?

Id, probably not

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

Um no

Has anyone put there arms around you in the past five days?

Umm yeah

Are you wasting your time with anyone right now?

Probably

Do you want a small or big wedding?

Hm small but big

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?

No

Has anything made you really happy today?

No

Did you have a dream last night?

Yup

Was last New Year’s enjoyable?

Uh can’t remember :/

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?

No

Is anything bugging you right now?

Yes

When was the last time you laughed so hard you couldn’t breathe?

Last month

Are you someone who’s a bitch because you’re so honest?

Somewhat

Have you ever cleaned up someone else’s vomit?

Yeah

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your gf/bf?

Don’t think so

Do you think someone is thinking about you?

No

Do you think it’s disgusting for a girl to drink alcohol and get drunk?

No

Is there someone you wish you were still close with?

Yes

Do you know what it’s like to be truly happy?

Nah

Do you believe in love?

Idk

Have you ever started a sentence with “no offense, but..”?

Yes everyone has

What color shirt are you wearing?

Black

Who came over last?

No one

Where was the last place you bought something?

Tesco

Are you an only child or do you have siblings?

Siblings

Any pet peeves?

Yeah

 

Are you married? 

Nahh

When was the last time you were told you were beautiful?

Never?

Could you go a day without eating?

Yeah

What was the reason you got grounded for last? 

Um life? lol

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?

On the cheek

Has someone recently told you they would do something, but they never did?

Yeah

Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?

Um somewhat

What color are your eyes?

Brown ;(

How did you get one of your scars?

Burn

Do you like the snow?

Yeah

Which did you discover first, MySpace or Facebook?

Myspace

Who is the last person that called you attractive?

Not sure

..Have you ever slapped someone?

Mhmm

Do you know anyone who is addicted to drugs?

Erm…not sure

Where did your last hug take place?

In town

Are you taller than your mom?

Yeah

Do you look more like your mom or dad?

Dunno

Who was the last person in your bedroom? 

Thea

Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you’re at in life now?

Yeah kinda but kinda not

Are you in a good mood?

Meh

Are you a jealous person?

I can be yes

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

Personal

Are you afraid to tell your true feelings? if no, explain it.

Yes and no

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?

Yes

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?

Yes

How do you know the last person you were in a car with?

My dad and smelly

Is it possible to be JUST friends with someone you wanna be with?

No I don’t think so

Do you hate the last person you kissed?

Not even a little bit

Do you ever think about the past?

All the time

Last night you felt? 

Confused

Fan of Lil Wayne?

He’s aight

Lady Gaga?

Nah

What are your plans for this weekend?

Bournemouth with my friends hopefully and then recover

What would you do if you were stuck in a room with someone you hated?

Probably talk to them, sort it out

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to sleep last night?

Karolis

Who was the last person to tell you they missed you?

I think Karolis or Melvis

Who knows you better than anyone else?

No one

Did you straighten your hair this morning?

No

What do you hear right now?

No Doubt and Adams music 

Are you tired of something?

Yes

Do you want kids?

Yeah

Where’s your cell phone?

Pocket

Who do you have texts from in your inbox?

Sam, Thea, Ellie, Noseface, Hooly, Aisha, V, Some randomer

 

Where are you?

My room

What is the last thing you thought about?

Some suff

Do you regret anything?

Mhmm

Would you curse in front of your parents?

Yeah

Missing someone right now?

Always

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?

Yeah

Do you like your phone?

I did but now it’s old

Who was the last person to go to the movies with you?

Rachiepoo probably

Are you currently fighting with someone?~

No

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?~

Maybe last week

Are you mad at someone right now?~

Not exactly..

Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone?

Cell

Has this year been good for you?~

Kinda I guess

Have you ever lost a guy friend?~

Yeah

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?~

Primark

Does age really matter in a relationship?~

A bit yeah

Do you want to start over with anyone?~

Yeah

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat?~

Yes please

Whats your favorite color in the world?~

Blue

Favorite childhood memory?~

Too many

Are you cold, warm, or just right at the moment?~

Just right

Are you watching anything?~

Nah

How about the last person to comment you?~

Pfft idk

What was the last movie you watched at home?~

Breakfast Club

Do you feel like you need to brush your teeth at the moment?~

No

What have you done today?~

Shower, Tidy, Paint eggs, Tie dye a shirt, chill, laundry, piss people off

Where are your pets right now?~

Home

Who was the last person you talked to in person?~

Thea

Have you ever felt like you found the “one”?~

No

What was the last piece of candy you ate?~

Can’t remember

Who was the last person to IM you?~

I don’t IM

What is todays date?~

May 5th 2013

Don’t you hate it when your body parts fall asleep?~

No

Who is always able to cheer you up when you’re sad~

No one really

Today I really want to be with my friends being stupid and random and not giving a shit. I miss life so much, but I need a change nothing changes and it’s getting boring and horrible. I don’t even think I know what I want but today has been such a shitty day and again I wanna go somewhere no one knows me but I get attached and fuck everything up. 3 more years with the friends I’ve made; they say you make friends for life at uni but I know the minute they leave everyone will forget about each other and that’s that. I mean I’m used to it but some change would be really good, like really fucking good or stability in one aspect of my life. I need to get my shit together or decide what I want to do. I don’t want to do anything I don’t know. I want to care but if I do I’ll care too much and then I’m fucked. I want to be a kid again or just something. Anything good would be really great right now.

I'm literally this bored.

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  • 1: What would you name your future daughter? Ask me when I have said daughter
  • 2: Do you miss anyone? Hell yes
  • 3: What if I told you that you were pretty? You lied
  • 4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? Nah
  • 5: What are you looking forward to in the next week? SATURDAYY and my last two deadlines being over
  • 6: Did you go out or stay in last night? Stay in
  • 7: How late did you stay up last night? uhhh 3am?
  • 8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Yeah today
  • 9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? Bed
  • 10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? Yeah probably
  • 11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Umm, probably yeah
  • 12: Have you pretended to like someone? Course
  • 13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Yeah
  • 14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Mhmm
  • 15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? Depends
  • 16: Think back five months ago, were you single? Yes
  • 17: Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yes
  • 18: Hold hands with anyone this week? Yeah
  • 19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? No
  • 20: Who did you last see in person? Uh George or Adam
  • 21: What is the last thing you said out lot? Out loud? Um, "that's okayyy"
  • 22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? Naw
  • 23: Have you ever been to Paris? Naw
  • 24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Like a boss
  • 25: Do you use chap stick? I should
  • 26: Who did you last share a bed with? Um probably Karolis or Ellie
  • 27: Are you listening to music right now? Yeah boi
  • 28: What is something you currently want right now? Someone to come home so I'm not bored
  • 29: Were your last three kisses from the same person? Yeah
  • 30: How is your heart lately? Doing its job
  • 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? Sometimes, thug life innit
  • 32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? Today
  • 33: What do people call you? Asha, Ash, Ashman, Short Person, Dumbo etc.. there are so many names..
  • 34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Yes
  • 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? Course, everyone has them
  • 36: What are you listening to right now? Somewhere in Neverland - All Time Low
  • 37: What is wrong with you right now? You want the whole list or..?
  • 38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? I don't know
  • 39: Do you make wishes at 11:11? When I was littler
  • 40: What is on your wrists right now?A hair band and friendship bracelet
  • 41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected? Single
  • 42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? Primark
  • 43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Naw
  • 44: Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yeah
  • 45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? Yeah
  • 46: What were you doing at midnight last night? Watching Devil with my crew
  • 47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? No, they're kinda the same
  • 48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? I share my bed with my koala but idk, depends what mood i'm in
  • 49: Have you ever been to New York? No, but one day
  • 50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Probably not

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